Moving on .

I've been blogging for a few years now. Sometimes sporadically sometimes daily, but almost regularly. I have finally separated from XSU and starting to live a new life on my own. The original blog helped me get through the painful process of the end of the marriage, along with some bumpy roads dealing with a critically ill child in the midst of the end of marriage mess. Now this blog will see me through the new paths and adventures that life has to offer. Restructuring my life. My way. My experiences, ventings, musings on that whole big and not so big deal.

October 26, 2009


I am giddy with tiredness.  I am waaaaay over tired.  But here I am - in bed- in the dark watching U2 on YouTube. It was apparently very loud as RJ came in and told me to turn it down.  What? It's Elevation - my absolutely favourite U2 song.  I LOVE that song.  Grudgingly I did turn it down.  It's 12:48 AM and I should be well into my beauty rest.  God knows at my age, puffy eyes in the morning are totally not attractive.     
The Edge... coolest of the cool axe men and my goodness what is it about those strong quiet guitar types anyway?   That touque though.. as much as he always wears it - I bet he's gone bald under that hat and has "issues." WhatEv. See how tired I am rambling away on the blog. 

This has been a seriously stupidly busy week.  I had things going on every evening after work.  A couple of meetings, an exit interview with a coach leaving the gym - that was some one hour- a memorial service for a friend's dad, plus the usual chauffering and dealing with RJ and Frenchy.    Rebel came around more than once scrounging for food.  
The windows were all replaced and I had to take care of a couple of little imperfections. TattooYou - the Hunky Handyman's work partner - came in to paint trim along the front hall and finish the main floor. I had planned on a quiet weekend alone at home but for some reason RJ didn't go to the XSU's place and I ended up having to run her around with Frenchy.   The weekend was no better.  I didn't stop either day and I find I am not interested in that kind of pace but with no one around to pick up around me, I did what I had to do. 

On the one hand I don't mind RJ being here but she has not an ounce of gratitude in her little self and I am rather tired of it.  I am hoping that once Frenchy leaves, in 10 days, that RJ will go spend some time at her dad's and leave me in peace for a week or three.  Unmotherly?  Perhaps but the reality is - I hope she is as brutal towards her father as she is to me.   I am exhausted with her and need the break to re group.

 This single parenting thing makes me tired and at the same time makes it impossible to sleep as stuff keeps racing through my head.

The two girls are eating me out of house and home.  Have I ever mentioned that I do NOT enjoy grocery shopping except as therapy?  To actually have to keep track of bread, milk, cheese and yogurt bores me.  It was an SU task  as was the monies spent on thd is stuff.. Two teen age girls in the house and I swear I am spending a small fortune every week on food.  And of course the usual refrain of "there's nothing to eat" two minutes after all the groceries were put away.
I had Rebel, her BF, RJ Frenchy and one of RJ's friends at the house this evening.  Rebel wants take out food - and half the groceries went out the door with her. My kitchen is totally turned around due to the minor imperfection with the windows.  too long of a story for now.

Do I sound cranky?  I feel cranky.  Perhaps a good night's rest would cure that?   Vertigo - my other favourite U2 song.   Time to crash.  6:30arrives way too soon. 



Rudy said...

OMG! I am tired. Up way too late last night installing XBOX and watching son walk me through a couple games and how to use the dashboard to get demos and trailers.

plus now I can see new episodes of The Guild as they are released.

I am SO tired. there is a high chance I may come down with eye trouble as well.

Anonymous said...

I often send food home with the marrieds since when they come to visit I buy what they like to eat which may or may not be what the kid and I like to eat. LOL! When they are here I obviously have way more dishes and my house always looks like a cyclone went through it. They are getting better about putting their shoes away at night so there is that.

I hope for your sake that RJ does go grace XSU with her presence for a time once Frenchy leaves. Now when does RJ go to France for her turn at the exchange?

I was hit with insomnia as well. I went to sleep okay but woke about an hour later and could not go back to sleep. Two discs of Friends later and I was still awake. How is this helpful?
And despite what my blog says about my head and neck pain it has returned in force since writing the blog entry. Excellent.Just lovely.

I blame it all on Monday. Eff you, Monday!

love and hugs,
~ b

MarieA said...

hmm must be the time of year or something when we're all tired.
BLondie... so sorry to hear about the pain returning. That can't be good.

And yep. RJ has already told me she is heading to her dad's as soon as Frenchy's plane leaves the tarmac.
She goes to France on Feb 5th I think until May 3rd. It will be less noisy around here.
I expect I'll miss her but it will be quiet and tranquil I hope.

Let's hope we have a better Tuesday.