Moving on .

I've been blogging for a few years now. Sometimes sporadically sometimes daily, but almost regularly. I have finally separated from XSU and starting to live a new life on my own. The original blog helped me get through the painful process of the end of the marriage, along with some bumpy roads dealing with a critically ill child in the midst of the end of marriage mess. Now this blog will see me through the new paths and adventures that life has to offer. Restructuring my life. My way. My experiences, ventings, musings on that whole big and not so big deal.

April 16, 2011

Hello, Yes,

It's been awhile {again}.

This time being the abject failure of the hard drive on my little red Dell. My Facebook withdrawal is killing me, and even getting to the library to post every now and again just doesn’t do it for me.

VNN took off for a two week trip to Florida to visit a cousin. Took the golf clubs and whoosh! Gone! I thought I’d be fine and would be glad to have my life back but surprisingly, that was no longer my life! I pined away terribly, counting down the days til he returned, but don’t worry, I did have some fun with friends as well.

VNN had been planning a four day drive back from Florida thinking he’d sight-see, and in the end, he power drove back in two days! I got a call around 9 PM on Tuesday this week, and practically *ran* to his place to welcome him back. We toasted over absolutely wonderful 21 year old Glenlivet single malt that was ambrosia. So different from the Oban we said goodbye with. We bond over single malt in oh so many unique ways.

In other news, XSU’s father died last week at the age of 94. Not sure how well he is coping but it’s not my problem. Rebel drove down east with him for the funeral. I have not been very communicative and have not sent him a condolence note or anything. I just didn’t have it in me. However, I guess I’ll have to say something, as I can’t see just launching back into business type emails. My father in law was a grumpy crusty, old man who paid more attention to his friends than to his sons. Surprisingly, at the funeral, a couple of the boys from the Legion Hall told Rebel he talked about her all the time especially during her illness and recovery. The man clearly kept his emotions from those who mattered most but shared his stories about his family with his friends.

I am pretty much in intense besotted mode acting like a 20 yr old in love but …. with a 50 year old woman’s experience. I tell ya, there ain’t NOTHING like being in love, and having a great time with the man who makes me smile and laugh, and who adores me. And I am reminding myself to reciprocate as well. lessons learned from the disaster that was the marriage. I am working hard at living this relationship in a new way. VNN though has very good communication skills and does not shy away from anything. It's a work in progress I'll tell you. On the upside, my GOODNESS, I have not had such great sex ever in my life. Ever.

We’ve even started talking about living together though I am still NOT on the marriage track. But with his two HUGE cats, my dog, and my one, for now, live-in daughter, I am not running to make changes that quickly. For now, the once-in-awhile sleep overs and barbecued steak dinners work for me. I still kinda need my space and solitary time.

Here's hoping I find the Dell recovery disc for the laptop. My new BFF got a new hard drive for me and will install it. Talk to you all soon, I HOPE!

April 03, 2011

It's been awhile

Yes dear readers, it's been awhile since I posted. A month it appears! I've been busy. And when I haven't been busy, the damn laptop keeps fritzing out. Dell~ I loved you but not so much, even with your lovely redness! sigh. So I hve a friend running diagnostics on it and I keep bringing dinner to his place for his wife and my favourite kids books (Paperbag Princess for starters) for their babies. In a few short paragraphs this has been my life so far. Still spending a lot of time with VNN. He's been in Florida the last week and won't be home til around the 14th or 15th of April. Surprisingly, I am missing him. A LOT! He calls me every couple of days before bedtime, so we have a lot of what shall I call it,.... phone sex? In a way I am glad he did leave town, because frankly, I am not as young as I used to be and I have sore muscles in places I didn't remember having muscles. It's a good rest to rejuvenate for when he gets back! Though not sure I'll be able to cope! I applied for a job. I didn't get the job. I am okay with it. I heard through a variety of sources that the presentation I did in front of the staff was the best out of all of them. The interview - not great I don't think, so I am not surprised I didn't get through. No worries, I still like what I do and think I'll be fine where I am. Rebel borrowed my car a week or so ago, and rear ended someone. This was accident number 4 I think. She wasn't hurt, just upset. And the car is fine. She didn't get her license until after surgery so I am not impressed. Not sure she'll be getting my car again. RJ is planning unversity and prom. She came back from the Dominican Republic and added over $375 roaming charges on her cell. Which I won't pay. She may have to borrow a prom dress. I have been teaching one course at University this term. Last day tomorrow. That was great fun. I hope to do it again next fall. AND I am taking French conversation two mornings a week to get up to management level. That's okay except we start at 8 AM. So I have to be at work at 7:30 AM to catch my ride with the other two girls. These early morning wake up calls are killing me. All is quiet on the Reconstruction Front. I like it that way. I'll do what I can to