Finally! The laptop is fixed. Again. Wireless router issues are done I hope. For now.
I have a bit of a cold, but it's not going to stop me from going away for the annual Scrap & Spa weekend with the girls. The photos are printed, the bags are organized and I am outta here this weekend. Much to VNN's dismay, I think. He's already counting down til I get back, and I haven't even left yet! lol.
He's managed to catch my cold... oops! We are spending too much time together I guess.
I am slowly introducing him to people I know. We've been working on the outer circle of acquaintances... that would be me testing the waters, and as I expected it's been going well. We even went to a swanky vegan restaurant because one colleague is vegan. The meal was amazing and the conversation was wonderful.
It's just lovely to be with someone who actually knows how to hold up a conversation and fit in. I am sooooo comfortable with this man.
I am allowing RJ to stay home alone this weekend. She has a friend staying with her. I am putting away all my booze. Not leaving anything to chance.
February 24, 2011
February 18, 2011
In the Meantime.
It's Friday. I had a Wordless ready on Wednesday, a 13 on Thursday but the laptop is defeating me, so I am using my other channels for getting info up for the short term. Thanks friend! (-;
And the relationship continues to grow. This restructuring thing is working quite nicely I have to say. It's a little disconcerting on some levels as we continue to get to know each other and enjoy each other's company. I find that every day I don't see him makes me pine away and I can barely stand it until we are together again. I KNOW!!! WHO KNEW??
I sometimes analyze this and wonder if maybe it's just a "first one" kind of thing. You know, the first one after the breakup - the rebound thing. But then I think, it can't be. The feelings are way too strong. But so quickly? And we really like each other; and can such strong feelings happen so quickly? I talk about it with the VNN and we both think that this "thing" means something. Then I have to step away, take a very deep breath, and say a day at a time. Just a day at a time. It's different this time. I am communicating differently,and handling myself differently. Also, he's not the XSU. In a big way not the XSU. So it has to be different.
In the meantime, I sneak around RJ the way I used to sneak around my mother. Because really, I can't have sleep overs with a teen in the house. And VNN gets that part very well. We pine. But we are "mature" and deal with these things.
RJ is pretty much busy in her last year of high school anyway and has no time for me most days. But when she does have time, I do have to stick around.
Rebel, is pretty busy diving again and coaching. She's totally in her element. I think her love for her sport is what will do in her relationship with the loser boyfriend. I can only hope.
So... I continue to restructure and things continue to move. I feel things are moving in the right direction. How lucky is that!? In the meantime, I am reading the "how to get your divorce done" books and filing in paperwork. Time to get that done too!
And the relationship continues to grow. This restructuring thing is working quite nicely I have to say. It's a little disconcerting on some levels as we continue to get to know each other and enjoy each other's company. I find that every day I don't see him makes me pine away and I can barely stand it until we are together again. I KNOW!!! WHO KNEW??
I sometimes analyze this and wonder if maybe it's just a "first one" kind of thing. You know, the first one after the breakup - the rebound thing. But then I think, it can't be. The feelings are way too strong. But so quickly? And we really like each other; and can such strong feelings happen so quickly? I talk about it with the VNN and we both think that this "thing" means something. Then I have to step away, take a very deep breath, and say a day at a time. Just a day at a time. It's different this time. I am communicating differently,and handling myself differently. Also, he's not the XSU. In a big way not the XSU. So it has to be different.
In the meantime, I sneak around RJ the way I used to sneak around my mother. Because really, I can't have sleep overs with a teen in the house. And VNN gets that part very well. We pine. But we are "mature" and deal with these things.
RJ is pretty much busy in her last year of high school anyway and has no time for me most days. But when she does have time, I do have to stick around.
Rebel, is pretty busy diving again and coaching. She's totally in her element. I think her love for her sport is what will do in her relationship with the loser boyfriend. I can only hope.
So... I continue to restructure and things continue to move. I feel things are moving in the right direction. How lucky is that!? In the meantime, I am reading the "how to get your divorce done" books and filing in paperwork. Time to get that done too!
February 06, 2011
Quiet and Content
It's been another lovely week. A bit of radio silence, but not as much as I had expected. This is the anniversary of VNN's wife's passing and I pretty much went out of the picture as VNN needed to be on his own and get through the time marker in his own way.
It has been a tough week for him, but we did managed to spend some time together - and have grown closer quite quickly. A surprise to both of us.
I met his closest friends this past Friday and still don't know if I passed muster or not. No reason why I shouldn't I guess but I have no clue how hard they took the wife's passing - it must be kind of odd to watch your friend move on. As it was, we left his friends, and went back to his place for a night cap, and by the time I got home it must have been after 2 AM.
Rebel had asked me for a drive first thing Saturday morning, so up I got on four hours sleep, and managed to get her where she needed to be. Then off I went to a friend's for brunch clear across the other side of the city from me.
I spent the afternoon puttering in the kitchen making a cassoulet. Now that was a project, but it seems to smell pretty delish, so I think this was a hit. I'm having our theatre group - the girls who go to theatre together - for dinner this week before our show, so that will be all done now.
My cousin called me around 7 ish and I chatted with her for about an hour filling her in on the latest on my life. I was so exhausted that after I hung up the phone, I just slid right down on the couch, snuggled under a blanket and fell asleep. I didn't wake up til around 4:30 AM, with kitchen lights on, food not put away in the kitchen after my creativity went awry on cassoulet. I clearly can't keep drinking three whiskys a night and work on four hours sleep.
VNN called today before heading out to his Super Bowl party with the lads to tell me he was all right, and would see me Tuesday. I of course, have a meeting on Monday after school, and am not free, much to the dismay of both of us.
I have to say, I am enjoying this new version of togetherness. We're still not quite "out there openly" but yet, while I was out with VNN on Friday I ran into some friends and didn't quite know how to introduce him. boyfriend? oy please - at my age?! friend? seems a little cold, companion? what? We're both kind of struggling with this one.
A nice quiet weekend, comfort, contentment, and figuring out the new relationship. It's all good.
It has been a tough week for him, but we did managed to spend some time together - and have grown closer quite quickly. A surprise to both of us.
I met his closest friends this past Friday and still don't know if I passed muster or not. No reason why I shouldn't I guess but I have no clue how hard they took the wife's passing - it must be kind of odd to watch your friend move on. As it was, we left his friends, and went back to his place for a night cap, and by the time I got home it must have been after 2 AM.
Rebel had asked me for a drive first thing Saturday morning, so up I got on four hours sleep, and managed to get her where she needed to be. Then off I went to a friend's for brunch clear across the other side of the city from me.
I spent the afternoon puttering in the kitchen making a cassoulet. Now that was a project, but it seems to smell pretty delish, so I think this was a hit. I'm having our theatre group - the girls who go to theatre together - for dinner this week before our show, so that will be all done now.
My cousin called me around 7 ish and I chatted with her for about an hour filling her in on the latest on my life. I was so exhausted that after I hung up the phone, I just slid right down on the couch, snuggled under a blanket and fell asleep. I didn't wake up til around 4:30 AM, with kitchen lights on, food not put away in the kitchen after my creativity went awry on cassoulet. I clearly can't keep drinking three whiskys a night and work on four hours sleep.
VNN called today before heading out to his Super Bowl party with the lads to tell me he was all right, and would see me Tuesday. I of course, have a meeting on Monday after school, and am not free, much to the dismay of both of us.
I have to say, I am enjoying this new version of togetherness. We're still not quite "out there openly" but yet, while I was out with VNN on Friday I ran into some friends and didn't quite know how to introduce him. boyfriend? oy please - at my age?! friend? seems a little cold, companion? what? We're both kind of struggling with this one.
A nice quiet weekend, comfort, contentment, and figuring out the new relationship. It's all good.
February 01, 2011
Leaving the cougar behind
There's something to be said for sharing food Tapas style. My favourite restaurant in my little town is a fabulous tapas bar where the menu and wine list change often. I love the place and have spent many hours there with many friends to the point that the manager knows me and greets me by name.
This past Sunday I had the best time ever with VNN. We went out for a movie and dinner. The King's Speech and tapas. I would have liked to have seen True Grit being the true blue Coen Brothers fan that I am but agreed to the Firth film and was not at all disappointed. Firth has finally left Mr Darcy in the dust.
Then it was tapas time. VNN had a wine flight with his share of the food. Red wine. Not my thing at all. Now interestingly, I could certainly smell the difference in the wines, but they all three tasted like..... red wine. He thought that was pretty funny, and couldn't understand how I couldn't tell the difference. It's a flaw no doubt. Oddly though, my scotch tasting palate is much more well defined, which he appreciates.
The intimacy of sharing plates of food and enjoying glasses of wine just made for a fabulously lovely evening. We shared food, talked, stole a kiss or two, held hands and just *really* enjoyed each other's company. I can totally feel myself starting to fall for this man. He has a presence and a style as well as an ability to just be in the moment with me. I am kind of overwhelmed by all that. And so totally not used to it at all.
And to think I wanted to date someone ten years younger than me. Well, there's certainly nothing wrong with being the "younger" woman instead of the cougar I thought I wanted to be. Nothing at all.
This past Sunday I had the best time ever with VNN. We went out for a movie and dinner. The King's Speech and tapas. I would have liked to have seen True Grit being the true blue Coen Brothers fan that I am but agreed to the Firth film and was not at all disappointed. Firth has finally left Mr Darcy in the dust.
Then it was tapas time. VNN had a wine flight with his share of the food. Red wine. Not my thing at all. Now interestingly, I could certainly smell the difference in the wines, but they all three tasted like..... red wine. He thought that was pretty funny, and couldn't understand how I couldn't tell the difference. It's a flaw no doubt. Oddly though, my scotch tasting palate is much more well defined, which he appreciates.
The intimacy of sharing plates of food and enjoying glasses of wine just made for a fabulously lovely evening. We shared food, talked, stole a kiss or two, held hands and just *really* enjoyed each other's company. I can totally feel myself starting to fall for this man. He has a presence and a style as well as an ability to just be in the moment with me. I am kind of overwhelmed by all that. And so totally not used to it at all.
And to think I wanted to date someone ten years younger than me. Well, there's certainly nothing wrong with being the "younger" woman instead of the cougar I thought I wanted to be. Nothing at all.
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