Moving on .

I've been blogging for a few years now. Sometimes sporadically sometimes daily, but almost regularly. I have finally separated from XSU and starting to live a new life on my own. The original blog helped me get through the painful process of the end of the marriage, along with some bumpy roads dealing with a critically ill child in the midst of the end of marriage mess. Now this blog will see me through the new paths and adventures that life has to offer. Restructuring my life. My way. My experiences, ventings, musings on that whole big and not so big deal.

February 18, 2011

In the Meantime.

It's Friday. I had a Wordless ready on Wednesday, a 13 on Thursday but the laptop is defeating me, so I am using my other channels for getting info up for the short term. Thanks friend! (-;

And the relationship continues to grow. This restructuring thing is working quite nicely I have to say. It's a little disconcerting on some levels as we continue to get to know each other and enjoy each other's company. I find that every day I don't see him makes me pine away and I can barely stand it until we are together again. I KNOW!!! WHO KNEW??

I sometimes analyze this and wonder if maybe it's just a "first one" kind of thing. You know, the first one after the breakup - the rebound thing. But then I think, it can't be. The feelings are way too strong. But so quickly? And we really like each other; and can such strong feelings happen so quickly? I talk about it with the VNN and we both think that this "thing" means something. Then I have to step away, take a very deep breath, and say a day at a time. Just a day at a time. It's different this time. I am communicating differently,and handling myself differently. Also, he's not the XSU. In a big way not the XSU. So it has to be different.

In the meantime, I sneak around RJ the way I used to sneak around my mother. Because really, I can't have sleep overs with a teen in the house. And VNN gets that part very well. We pine. But we are "mature" and deal with these things.

RJ is pretty much busy in her last year of high school anyway and has no time for me most days. But when she does have time, I do have to stick around.
Rebel, is pretty busy diving again and coaching. She's totally in her element. I think her love for her sport is what will do in her relationship with the loser boyfriend. I can only hope.

So... I continue to restructure and things continue to move. I feel things are moving in the right direction. How lucky is that!? In the meantime, I am reading the "how to get your divorce done" books and filing in paperwork. Time to get that done too!


Anonymous said...

Hope you get the system back up and running properly. I would be flippin the hell out if it was me.

It is good to hear that things are working quite nicely. Look at you all love sick. It's cute. LOL!

Meh. I dunno if you need to analyze it if you are enjoying the relationship. Just be who you are and accept that he is who he is.

LOL about the sneaking around. Funny but doesn't really sound like much fun at our age. {GAH. Did I just call us old? Sorry!}

So good to hear that the Rebel is diving and coaching. I know she must love it. We are still hoping for the loser BF to go away.

And yes, get the process finished. It is mos def time.

Happy Weekend.
love and hugs,
~ b

Anonymous said...

"Meh. I dunno if you need to analyze it if you are enjoying the relationship. Just be who you are and accept that he is who he is. "

Absolutely agree, Blondie is so clever!!!

excuse me, what's with Ms. Meez and the off the shoulder look, ehem???