Moving on .

I've been blogging for a few years now. Sometimes sporadically sometimes daily, but almost regularly. I have finally separated from XSU and starting to live a new life on my own. The original blog helped me get through the painful process of the end of the marriage, along with some bumpy roads dealing with a critically ill child in the midst of the end of marriage mess. Now this blog will see me through the new paths and adventures that life has to offer. Restructuring my life. My way. My experiences, ventings, musings on that whole big and not so big deal.

April 16, 2011

Hello, Yes,

It's been awhile {again}.

This time being the abject failure of the hard drive on my little red Dell. My Facebook withdrawal is killing me, and even getting to the library to post every now and again just doesn’t do it for me.

VNN took off for a two week trip to Florida to visit a cousin. Took the golf clubs and whoosh! Gone! I thought I’d be fine and would be glad to have my life back but surprisingly, that was no longer my life! I pined away terribly, counting down the days til he returned, but don’t worry, I did have some fun with friends as well.

VNN had been planning a four day drive back from Florida thinking he’d sight-see, and in the end, he power drove back in two days! I got a call around 9 PM on Tuesday this week, and practically *ran* to his place to welcome him back. We toasted over absolutely wonderful 21 year old Glenlivet single malt that was ambrosia. So different from the Oban we said goodbye with. We bond over single malt in oh so many unique ways.

In other news, XSU’s father died last week at the age of 94. Not sure how well he is coping but it’s not my problem. Rebel drove down east with him for the funeral. I have not been very communicative and have not sent him a condolence note or anything. I just didn’t have it in me. However, I guess I’ll have to say something, as I can’t see just launching back into business type emails. My father in law was a grumpy crusty, old man who paid more attention to his friends than to his sons. Surprisingly, at the funeral, a couple of the boys from the Legion Hall told Rebel he talked about her all the time especially during her illness and recovery. The man clearly kept his emotions from those who mattered most but shared his stories about his family with his friends.

I am pretty much in intense besotted mode acting like a 20 yr old in love but …. with a 50 year old woman’s experience. I tell ya, there ain’t NOTHING like being in love, and having a great time with the man who makes me smile and laugh, and who adores me. And I am reminding myself to reciprocate as well. lessons learned from the disaster that was the marriage. I am working hard at living this relationship in a new way. VNN though has very good communication skills and does not shy away from anything. It's a work in progress I'll tell you. On the upside, my GOODNESS, I have not had such great sex ever in my life. Ever.

We’ve even started talking about living together though I am still NOT on the marriage track. But with his two HUGE cats, my dog, and my one, for now, live-in daughter, I am not running to make changes that quickly. For now, the once-in-awhile sleep overs and barbecued steak dinners work for me. I still kinda need my space and solitary time.

Here's hoping I find the Dell recovery disc for the laptop. My new BFF got a new hard drive for me and will install it. Talk to you all soon, I HOPE!


Anonymous said...

You have been missed, girlfriend. I hope that your new BFF can get your lappy fixed up speedy quick fast.

Sounds like your life is moving along quite nicely. I am so happy for you as you do deserve a man who treasures the time he spends with you and lets you know that he does.

Happy weekend! I am sure you are busy with VNN {does he need a new name again? Cuz he sure sounds like he is more than a Very Nice Neighbor. ;-)} and you aren't even giving us out here in bloggy land a second thought.

much love and hugs,
~ b

Aleks said...

I'm so glad to see how happy you are!! You deserve the best!

Rudy said...

best. sex. ever!

lol good on ya T

love and hugs

Anonymous said...

How exciting on all accounts....don't dawdle, if it feels right "just do it"...says she who has been single for 12 years...LOL