Hello, Yes,

It's been awhile {again}.

This time being the abject failure of the hard drive on my little red Dell. My Facebook withdrawal is killing me, and even getting to the library to post every now and again just doesn’t do it for me.

VNN took off for a two week trip to Florida to visit a cousin. Took the golf clubs and whoosh! Gone! I thought I’d be fine and would be glad to have my life back but surprisingly, that was no longer my life! I pined away terribly, counting down the days til he returned, but don’t worry, I did have some fun with friends as well.

VNN had been planning a four day drive back from Florida thinking he’d sight-see, and in the end, he power drove back in two days! I got a call around 9 PM on Tuesday this week, and practically *ran* to his place to welcome him back. We toasted over absolutely wonderful 21 year old Glenlivet single malt that was ambrosia. So different from the Oban we said goodbye with. We bond over single malt in oh so many unique ways.

In other news, XSU’s father died last week at the age of 94. Not sure how well he is coping but it’s not my problem. Rebel drove down east with him for the funeral. I have not been very communicative and have not sent him a condolence note or anything. I just didn’t have it in me. However, I guess I’ll have to say something, as I can’t see just launching back into business type emails. My father in law was a grumpy crusty, old man who paid more attention to his friends than to his sons. Surprisingly, at the funeral, a couple of the boys from the Legion Hall told Rebel he talked about her all the time especially during her illness and recovery. The man clearly kept his emotions from those who mattered most but shared his stories about his family with his friends.

I am pretty much in intense besotted mode acting like a 20 yr old in love but …. with a 50 year old woman’s experience. I tell ya, there ain’t NOTHING like being in love, and having a great time with the man who makes me smile and laugh, and who adores me. And I am reminding myself to reciprocate as well. lessons learned from the disaster that was the marriage. I am working hard at living this relationship in a new way. VNN though has very good communication skills and does not shy away from anything. It's a work in progress I'll tell you. On the upside, my GOODNESS, I have not had such great sex ever in my life. Ever.

We’ve even started talking about living together though I am still NOT on the marriage track. But with his two HUGE cats, my dog, and my one, for now, live-in daughter, I am not running to make changes that quickly. For now, the once-in-awhile sleep overs and barbecued steak dinners work for me. I still kinda need my space and solitary time.

Here's hoping I find the Dell recovery disc for the laptop. My new BFF got a new hard drive for me and will install it. Talk to you all soon, I HOPE!